Life with Judy Garland: Me and My Shadows

Judy Garland:
I've got rainbows coming out my arse

Judy Garland:
I cannot take myself seriously. Because if I did I would have died a long time ago. And I dont want to die, dispite what you might have heard.

Judy Garland:
Oh for god sakes Liza can't you see I'm busy

Judy Garland:
He adores me and I need to be adored.

Judy Garland:
Since I was twelve years old they've been taking me out the closet and winding me up to sing and stuffing me back in again. Well maybe I don't feel like singing.

Judy Garland:
I'm only *really* at home in the light of the spotlight.

Narrator:
It's hard to be a legend's child. She's everywhere I turn like a shadow. It's remarkable, really, how much of our life begins before we're even born. I wonder sometimes what might have happened to us all if mama had just stayed Baby Frances Gumm... but she wasn't allowed to. She became Judy Garland. She became a legend.

Narrator:
It hurts when your mother is too sick to take care of you. My mother was handed her first dose of medication when she was a child. Hard work and pills had robbed her of her childhood, now those pills where beginning to destroy mine. I was beginning to understand the connection between her behaviour and her medication.

Young Judy Garland:
Do you think I'm pretty, Mr Edens?

Roger Edens:
Pretty doesn't come from the outside, Sugar. It comes from right here...

Roger Edens:
...and what you've got in there is beautiful. You're Frances Gumm.

Young Judy Garland:
I'm not Frances Gumm, I'm Judy Garland!

Roger Edens:
Well when you sing, I wanna hear Frances Gumm, that's who Judy Garland really is... and Frances Gumm has one of the best voices I've ever heard.

Young Judy Garland:
I get so scared sometimes Mr Edens. I don't know where that voice comes from.

Roger Edens:
It's a gift

Young Judy Garland:
But... does that mean that it can be taken away?

Lorna Luft, age 6:
No matter what happens... everybody loves you, Mama.

Michael Sidney 'Sid' Luft:
If she oversleeps and misses a dose, she could go into withdrawls or pass out or have a seizure.

Young Lorna Luft:
What do I do? Do I call the operator?

Michael Sidney 'Sid' Luft:
Honey, listen to me. *Never, ever* call the operator. You can call the doctor or better yet, call me in LA, *but you do not call the operator when your mother is Judy Garland*.

Judy Garland:
I'm not Lassie. I'm not even Dinah Shore. If you want the girl next door, go next door.