Apocalypse Now

Chef:
Why do all you guys sit on your helmets?

Soldier:
So we don't get our balls blown off.

Willard:
Saigon, sh*t, I'm still only in Saigon. Every time I think I'm gonna wake up back in the jungle.

Willard:
I hardly said a word to my wife until I said yes to a divorce.

Willard:
When I was here, I wanted to be there, when I was there all I could think of was getting back into the jungle.

Kurtz:
I've seen horrors... horrors that you've seen. But you have no right to call me a murderer. You have a right to kill me. You have a right to do that... but you have no right to judge me. It's impossible for words to describe what is necessary to those who do not know what horror means. Horror. Horror has a face... and you must make a friend of horror. Horror and moral terror are your friends. If they are not then they are enemies to be feared. They are truly enemies. I remember when I was with Special Forces. Seems a thousand centuries ago. We went into a camp to inoculate the children. We left the camp after we had inoculated the children for Polio, and this old man came running after us and he was crying. He couldn't see. We went back there and they had come and hacked off every inoculated arm. There they were in a pile. A pile of little arms. And I remember... I... I... I cried. I wept like some grandmother. I wanted to tear my teeth out. I didn't know what I wanted to do. And I want to remember it. I never want to forget it. I never want to forget. And then I realized... like I was shot... like I was shot with a diamond... a diamond bullet right through my forehead. And I thought: My God... the genius of that. The genius. The will to do that. Perfect, genuine, complete, crystalline, pure. And then I realized they were stronger than we. Because they could stand that these were not monsters. These were men... trained cadres. These men who fought with their hearts, who had families, who had children, who were filled with love... but they had the strength... the strength... to do that. If I had ten divisions of those men our troubles here would be over very quickly. You have to have men who are moral... and at the same time who are able to utilize their primordial instincts to kill without feeling... without passion... without judgment... without judgment. Because it's judgment that defeats us.

Roxanne:
Then you are like us; your home is here.

Willard:
Been here a week now, waiting for a mission, getting softer. Every minute I stay in this room, I get weaker, and every minute Charlie squats in the bush, he gets stronger.

Kurtz:
We must kill them. We must incinerate them. Pig after pig. Cow after cow. Village after village. Army after army.

Photojournalist:
What are they gonna say about him? What are they gonna say? That he was a kind man? That he was a wise man? That he had plans? That he had wisdom? Bullshit man!

Willard:
Could we, uh, talk to Colonel Kurtz?

Photojournalist:
Hey, man, you don't talk to the Colonel. You listen to him. The man's enlarged my mind. He's a poet-warrior in the classic sense. I mean sometimes he'll, uh, well, you'll say hello to him, right? And he'll just walk right by you, and he won't even notice you. And suddenly he'll grab you, and he'll throw you in a corner, and he'll say do you know that if is the middle word in life? If you can keep your head when all about you are losing theirs and blaming it on you, if you can trust yourself when all men doubt you - I mean I'm no, I can't - I'm a little man, I'm a little man, he's, he's a great man. I should have been a pair of ragged claws scuttling across floors of silent seas...

Kurtz:
I watched a snail crawl along the edge of a straight razor. That's my dream. That's my nightmare. Crawling, slithering, along the edge of a straight... razor... and surviving.

Willard:
I was going to the worst place in the world and I didn't even know it yet. Weeks away and hundreds of miles up a river that snaked through the war like a main circuit cable - plugged straight into Kurtz. It was no accident that I got to be the caretaker of Colonel Walter E. Kurtz's memory - any more than being back in Saigon was an accident. There is no way to tell his story without telling my own. And if his story really is a confession, then so is mine.

Willard:
How many people had I already killed? There was those six that I know about for sure. Close enough to blow their last breath in my face. But this time it was an American and an officer. That wasn't supposed to make any difference to me, but it did. Sh*t... charging a man with murder in this place was like handing out speeding tickets in the Indy 500. I took the mission. What the hell else was I gonna do?

Kurtz:
What do you call assassins who accuse assassins?

Willard:
If that's how Kilgore fought the war I began to wonder what they really had against Kurtz. It wasn't just insanity and murder, there was enough of that to go around for everyone.

Willard:
Oh man, the sh*t piled up so fast in Vietnam you needed wings to stay above it.

Willard:
No wonder Kurtz put a weed up Command's ass. The war was being run by a bunch of four star clowns who were gonna end up giving the whole circus away.

Willard:
It's a way we had over here with living with ourselves. We cut 'em in half with a machine gun and give 'em a Band-Aid. It was a lie. And the more I saw them, the more I hated lies.

Lance:
Disneyland. F***, man, this is better than Disneyland.

Chef:
He's worse than crazy, he's evil!

Chef:
I used to think if I died in an evil place then my soul wouldn't make it to heaven. Well, f***. I don't care where it goes as long it ain't here.

Photojournalist:
He likes you because you're still alive.

Willard:
The machinist, the one they called Chef, was from New Orleans. He was wrapped too tight for Vietnam, probably wrapped too tight for New Orleans. Lance on the forward 50's was a famous surfer from the beaches south of LA. You look at him and you wouldn't believe he ever fired a weapon in his whole life. Clean, Mr. Clean, was from some South Bronx shithole. Light and space of Vietnam really put the zap on his head. Then there was Phillips, the Chief. It might have been my mission, but it sure as sh*t was Chief's boat.

Chief Quartermaster (QMC) Phillips:
My orders say I'm not supposed to know where I'm taking this boat, so I don't. But one look at you, and I know it's gonna be hot.

Kilgore:
You either surf or you fight.

Willard:
Are you crazy God damnit? Don't you think its a little risky for some R&R?

Kilgore:
If I say its safe to surf this beach Captain, then its safe to surf this beach. I mean I'm not afraid to surf this place, I'll surf this whole f***ing place!

Kilgore:
Charlie don't surf!

Willard:
Everyone gets everything he wants. I wanted a mission, and for my sins, they gave me one. Brought it up to me like room service. It was a real choice mission, and when it was over, I never wanted another.

Willard:
Never get out of the boat. Absolutely goddamn right. Unless you were goin' all the way. Kurtz got off the boat. He split from the whole f***in' program.

Willard:
They were gonna make me a major for this, and I wasn't even in their f***in' army anymore.

Willard:
Charlie didn't get much USO. He was dug in too deep or moving too fast. His idea of great R&R was cold rice and a little rat meat. He had only two ways home: death, or victory.

Photo Journalist:
One through nine, no maybes, no supposes, no fractions. You can't travel in space, you can't go out into space, you know, without, like, you know, uh, with fractions - what are you going to land on - one-quarter, three-eighths? What are you going to do when you go from here to Venus or something? That's dialectic physics.

Kurtz:
We train young men to drop fire on people. But their commanders won't allow them to write "f***" on their airplanes because it's obscene!

Photo Journalist:
There's mines over there, there's mines over there, and watch out those goddamn monkeys bite, I'll tell ya.

Colonel Lucas:
Your mission is to proceed up the Nung River in a Navy patrol boat. Pick up Colonel Kurtz's path at Nu Mung Ba, follow it and learn what you can along the way. When you find the Colonel, infiltrate his team by whatever means available and terminate the Colonel's command.

Willard:
Terminate the Colonel.

General Corman:
He's out there operating without any decent restraint, totally beyond the pale of any acceptable human conduct. And he is still in the field commanding troops.

Civilian:
Terminate with extreme prejudice.

Colonel Lucas:
You understand Captain that this mission does not exist, nor will it ever exist.

Civilian:
Terminate... with extreme prejudice.

Kilgore:
You smell that? Do you smell that?... Napalm, son. Nothing else in the world smells like that. I love the smell of napalm in the morning. You know, one time we had a hill bombed, for twelve hours. When it was all over I walked up. We didn't find one of 'em, not one stinkin' dink body. The smell, you know that gasoline smell, the whole hill. Smelled like... victory. Someday this war's gonna end...

Kurtz:
Did they say why, Willard, why they want to terminate my command?

Willard:
I was sent on a classified mission, sir.

Kurtz:
It's no longer classified, is it? Did they tell you?

Willard:
They told me that you had gone totally insane, and that your methods were unsound.

Kurtz:
Are my methods unsound?

Willard:
I don't see any method at all, sir.

Kurtz:
I expected someone like you. What did you expect? Are you an assassin?

Willard:
I'm a soldier.

Kurtz:
You're neither. You're an errand boy, sent by grocery clerks, to collect a bill.

Willard:
On the river, I thought that the minute I looked at him, I'd know what to do, but it didn't happen. I was in there with him for days, not under guard, I was free, but he knew I wasn't going anywhere. He knew more about what I was going to do than I did. If the Generals back in Nha Trang could see what I saw, would they still want me to kill him? More than ever probably. And what would his people back home want if they ever learned just how far from them he'd really gone? He broke from them, and then he broke from himself. I'd never seen a man so broken up and ripped apart.

Kurtz:
I worry that my son might not understand what I've tried to be. And if I were to be killed, Willard, I would want someone to go to my home and tell my son everything. Everything I did, everything you saw, because there's nothing that I detest more than the stench of lies. And if you understand me Willard, you will do this for me.

Willard:
Everybody wanted me to do it, him most of all. I felt like he was up there, waiting for me to take the pain away. He just wanted to go out like a soldier, standing up, not like some poor, wasted, rag-assed renegade. Even the jungle wanted him dead, and that's who he really took his orders from anyway.

Kurtz:
The horror. The horror.

Kilgore:
What the hell do you know about surfing? You're from goddamned New Jersey.

Photo Journalist:
This is the way the f***ing world ends. Look at this f***ing sh*t we're in man. Not with a bang, but with a whimper. And with a whimper, I'm f***ing splitting, Jack.

Willard:
My mission is to make it up into Cambodia. There's a Green Beret Colonel up there who's gone insane. I'm supposed to kill him.

Chef:
That's typical. Sh*t. F***in' Vietnam mission. I'm short and we gotta go up there so you can kill one of our own guys? That's f***in' great! That's just f***in' great. Sh*t. That's f***in' crazy. I thought you were going in there to blow up a bridge, or some f***ing railroad tracks or somethin'.

Kilgore:
How're you feeling, Jimmy?

Door Gunner:
Like a mean motherf***er, sir!

Roxanne:
There are two of you. One that kills and one that loves.

Chef:
Lance, hey Lance. What do you think?

Lance:
It's beautiful.

Chef:
What's the matter with you? You're acting kinda weird.

Lance:
Hey, you know that last tab of acid I was saving? I dropped it.

Chef:
You dropped acid?... Far out.

Willard:
The crew were mostly kids. Rock & rollers with one foot in their grave.

Willard:
"1st of the ninth was an old Cavalry division that'd cashed in its horses for choppers that'd gone tear-assing around Nam lookin' for the sh*t!"

Willard:
Part of me was afraid of what I would find and what I would do when I got there. I knew the risks, or imagined I knew. But the thing I felt the most, much stronger than fear, was the desire to confront him.

Hubert:
You are fighting for the biggest nothing in history.

Roxanne:
Do you know why you can never step into the same river twice?

Willard:
Yeah, 'cause it's always moving.

Roxanne:
The war will still be here tomorrow.

Lt. Carlsen:
You're in the a**hole of the world, Captain!

Colonel Kilgore:
It scares the sh*t out of the slopes.

Willard:
Hey soldier, do you know whose in command here?

Soldier:
Ain't you?

Clean:
This sho' enuf a bizarre sight in the middle-a all this sh*t!

Willard:
He was one of those guys that had that weird light around him. You just knew he wasn't going to get so much as a scratch here.

Willard:
Someday this war's gonna end. That'd be just fine with the boys on the boat. They weren't looking for anything more than a way home. Trouble is, I'd been back there, and I knew that it just didn't exist anymore.

Willard:
In a war there are many moments for compassion and tender action. There are many moments for ruthless action - what is often called ruthless - what may in many circumstances be only clarity, seeing clearly what there is to be done and doing it, directly, quickly, awake, looking at it.

Willard:
As for the charges against me, I am unconcerned. I am beyond their timid lying morality, and so I am beyond caring.

Photo Journalist:
The heads. You're looking at the heads. Sometimes he goes too far. He's the first one to admit it.

Willard:
Who's in charge here?

Soldier:
In charge? I don't know, man. I'm just doing what I'm told - I'm just a working girl.

Kilgore:
I will not hurt or harm you. Just give me back the board, Lance. It was a good board - and I like it. You know how hard it is to find a board you like.

Engineman 3rd Class Jay "Chef" Hicks:
How come all you guys sit on your helmets?

Soldier:
So we don't get our balls blown off.

[Chef laughs a little, then sits on his helmet.]

Captain Benjamin L. Willard:
Who's the commanding officer here, soldier?

Infantryman:
Ain't you?

…

Captain Benjamin L. Willard:
Soldier, do you know who's in command here?

The Roach:
Yeah.

[He turns away.]

Lt. Carlsen:
I'm Lt. Carlsen. I was sent from Nha Trang with this message for you three days ago, sir. They expected you here a little sooner. This is mail for the boat's crew. You don't know how happy this makes me in delivering all this.

Captain Benjamin L. Willard:
Why?

Lt. Carlsen:
Because now I can get out of here... if I can find a way. [an enemy artillery shell lands dangerously close by as Lt. Carlsen runs away] You're in the a**hole of the world, Captain!

Captain Benjamin L. Willard:
My mission is to make it up into Cambodia. There's a Green Beret Colonel up there who's gone insane. I'm supposed to kill him.

Engineman 3rd Class Jay "Chef" Hicks:
That's f***ing typical! Sh*t. F***in' Vietnam mission! I'm short, and we gotta go up there so you can kill one of our own guys? That's f***in' great! That's just f***in' great, man. Sh*t. That's f***in'... crazy! I thought you were going in there to blow up a bridge, or, some f***ing railroad tracks or somethin'.

Captain Benjamin L. Willard:
I'm sorry. Look, I'll cut you loose here and you can turn around and...

Engineman 3rd Class Jay "Chef" Hicks:
[interrupting] No, no, we go together... on the boat! We came this far, so we go together. All the way! We'll take you up there, we'll go with you... but on the boat! Okay?

“Charlie don’t surf”

I TOLD you not to stop, now let's go.

"You'll get what you deserve".

Mangos man, I was raised to be a saucee

Heh heh, 6 foot peaks! - Robert Duvall as Kilgore, the Air Cav Commander.

I love the smell of NAPALM in the morning

Colonel Walter E. Kurtz:
Have you ever considered any real freedoms? Freedoms from the opinion of others... even the opinions of yourself?

Colonel Walter E. Kurtz:
As long as cold beer, hot food, rock 'n' roll, and all the other amenities remain expected norm, our conduct of the war will only gain impotence.

Colonel Walter E. Kurtz:
I've seen horrors, horrors that you've seen. But you have no right to call me a murderer. You have a right to kill me. You have a right to do that, but you have no right to judge me. It's impossible for words to describe what is necessary to those who do not know what horror means. Horror! Horror has a face, and you must make a friend of horror. Horror and moral terror are your friends. If they are not, then they are enemies to be feared. They are truly enemies.

Captain Benjamin L. Willard:
Saigon... sh*t; I'm still only in Saigon... Every time I think I'm gonna wake up back in the jungle. When I was home after my first tour, it was worse. I'd wake up and there'd be nothing. I hardly said a word to my wife, until I said "yes" to a divorce. When I was here, I wanted to be there; when I was there, all I could think of was getting back into the jungle. I'm here a week now... waiting for a mission... getting softer. Every minute I stay in this room, I get weaker, and every minute Charlie squats in the bush, he gets stronger. Each time I looked around the walls moved in a little tighter.

Captain Benjamin L. Willard: [reading a letter Kurtz has sent to his son] Dear son, I'm afraid that both you and your mother will have been worried at not hearing from me during the past weeks, but my situation here has become a difficult one. I've been officially accused of murder by the Army. The alleged victims were four Vietnamese double agents. We spent months uncovering them and accumulating evidence. When absolute proof was completed, we acted. We acted like soldiers. The charges are unjustified. They are in fact, and in the circumstances of this conflict, quite completely insane. In a war, there are many moments for compassion and tender action. There are many moments for ruthless action — what is often called ruthless, what may in many circumstances be only clarity — seeing clearly what there is to be done and doing it directly, quickly, awake, looking at it. I will trust you to tell your mother what you choose about this letter. As for the charges against me, I am unconcerned. I am beyond their timid, lying morality, and so I am beyond caring. You have all my faith. Your loving father."

Lieutenant Colonel William "Bill" Kilgore:
If I say it’s safe to surf this beach, Captain, it’s safe to surf this beach!

Engineman 3rd Class Jay "Chef" Hicks: [after being given a "tour" of Kurtz's camp, which contained rows of human heads impaled on spikes and displayed around ancient temples, Chef is horrified] "This Colonel guy? He's wacko, man! He's far worse than crazy - he's evil! I mean that's what the man's got set up here. It's f***in' pagan idolatry! Look around you. Sh*t! He's loco... I ain't afraid of all them f***in' skulls and altars and sh*t. I used to think if I died in an evil place, then my soul wouldn't be able to make it to Heaven. But now? F***! I mean, I don't care where it goes, as long as it ain't here! So whaddya wanna do? I'll kill the f***..."

Photojournalist:
[talking to Willard about Kurtz] Why? Why would a nice guy like you want to kill a genius? Going down pretty good, huh? Why? Do you know that the man really likes you? He likes you. He really likes you. But he's got something in mind for you. Aren't you curious about that? I'm curious. I'm very curious. Are you curious? There's something happening out here, man. You know something, man? I know something you that you don't know. That's right, Jack. The man is clear in his mind, but his soul is mad. Oh, yeah. He's dying, I think. He hates all this. He hates it! But the man's a... He reads poetry out loud, all right? And a voice... He likes you because you're still alive. He's got plans for you. No, I'm not gonna help you. You're gonna help him, man. You're gonna help him. I mean, what are they gonna say, man, when he's gone? 'Cause he dies when it dies, man! When it dies, he dies! What are they gonna say about him? What? Are they gonna say he was a kind man? He was a wise man? He had plans? He had wisdom? Bullshit, man! And am I gonna be the one that's gonna set them straight? Look at me! Wrong! [points to Willard] You!

Lieutenant General Corman:
Well, you see Willard, in this war, things get confused out there: power, ideals, the old morality, practical military necessity. But out there with these natives, it must be a temptation to be god, because there's a conflict in every human heart, between the rational and the irrational, between good and evil, and good does not always triumph. Sometimes, the dark side overcomes what Lincoln called the better angels of our nature. Every man has got a breaking point. You and I have one. Walter Kurtz has reached his, and very obviously, he has gone insane.

“Terminate with extreme prejudice”

Hubert de Marais:
[Redux version] See, Captain, when my grandfather and my uncle's father came here there was nothing. The Vietnamese were nothing. So we worked hard, very hard, and brought rubber from Brazil and then planted here. We took the Vietnamese, work with them, make something: something out of nothing. So when you ask me why we want to stay here, Captain, we want to stay here because it's ours. It belongs to us. It keeps our family together. I mean, we fight for that, while you Americans — you are fighting for the biggest nothing in all of history!

About:
My film is not about Vietnam. It is Vietnam. It’s what it was really like. It was crazy. And the way we made it was very much like the way the Americans were in Vietnam. We were in the jungle. There were too many of us. We had access to too much money, too much equipment, and little by little, we went insane.

Charlie don't surf!!