Virtual Alien

himself:
There is never any easy way to succeed through the front door. It's always through the back door.

himself:
I'm not religious. I'm an ethnic Jew but I've always felt I belong to a completely different world on a different planet. I'm a male, yes but I can be anything anyone wants me to be. I'm an alien from outer space.

himself:
Yes there is such a thing as the right time but it is only the right time as long as the one at the head of this industry or especially the people in-between can be bothered to know when the right time is. I mean in the public sense. Sometimes they refuse to release a project simply because they don't like it and not on its value. There are many other ways to get through all this. Just do it. At least when you did it, it's done -almost- you did it when it mattered. The project might take a while to be seen by the world but it will. It's there. There is such a thing as the right time to do it and the right time to show it.

himself:
I grew up next to David Bowie's house but I've never actually met him, only his son Joe. His house was empty. A friend of mine followed him to the dentist once but I've never wanted to meet him and yet I know all his albums. It's a bit clich?d and unfair: he was before me but he made it in the seventies: those were the days! I've covered one of his songs: "Fascination" and of course his fans never liked it and made sure I knew this. But I thought I was a fan? My influences? The films from the twenties until the late fifties and I always wanted to be Henry Purcell. I have sung and played the "King Arthur" on the piano and the organ over and over again.

himself:
Beyond the Sphere of Reasonable Doubt it's who we are who we have sex with, who we disagree with, who we want to kill, who we want to abuse and who wants to be abused.

himself:
Beyond the Sphere of Reasonable Doubt is spilling blood all over the place, believing it is Halloween night.

himself:
I have learnt over the years that not everyone will like you. In fact I'm fully aware that some people even loathe me up to my skeleton and I've never even met these people and never done them any harm. Fortunately I have a strong and loyal following. Art is really an odd thing: it can really upset people.

himself:
I did "Burning from the Inside" because the project has been offered to me. I had everyone against me: the Nigerian government, the main oil companies, big interests, the BBC and the left media clan in England who rejected the film because some of them wanted to do the project but were denied access to the relevant parties. I got so much vitriol from everyone: at some point I really feared for my life. The left criticized the film for being too "political" when in reality it was "historical". The film was in "black and white" and not in "color" therefore it was an Art film and not a documentary. Even the BBC's Kirsty Wark nearly had a heart attack when she saw the film. Nothing is totally in black and white and it was precisely why the film is in black and white. It was a film portraying conflicts and ended in conflicts and I didn't and have never taken sides. Anything involving oil is a very messy and dangerous business yet necessary and extremely lucrative. I've been digging oil myself! I know how it is. That's also why I embarked on the "Closer to the Sun" project afterwards, a thriller that will encompass the essence of it.

himself:
Show Biz? Nietzsche was right. The Gay Science! I was born into it and not "that way".

himself:
To paraphrase E.M. Forster: I have no racial or otherwise feeling "... not because I was superior to anyone, but because I had matured in a different atmosphere, where the herd instinct does not flourish."

himself:
There are still many journalists and members of the media who don't understand me, ignore me or loathe me. No one can please everyone. I've read that I was a ghost, that I don't exist and I couldn't have achieved or done whatever I've created. That did hurt because my Art encompasses at least over 100 artists so far and various producers and other talented people. So they don't exist either? If I'm small some of "them" are even bigger than I am.

himself:
My films were only partially completed when I first released them. Some people nearly collapsed when they have first seen the films, especially in Britain. Some people wouldn't get it anyway: the British film industry is still an extremely conservative club. They only know 1 or 2 genres. There are at least 100 genres. It's also one of the reasons why not many people go to the cinemas anymore as the choices are rather limited. Anyway my films are all about to see the light of day -again-, fully completed and in HD.

himself:
After nearly a decade of having attempted the Titanesque and Kafkaesque endeavor to hunt for funding and state funding, I really need to acknowledge here the huge list of dedicated civil servants processing the claims. They are the guardians of the kingdom and without them we wouldn't have a country. For film funding -and there is plenty in the UK- the whole world turns up and whether people are from the UK or overseas, they all go to such an extent to lie in order to grab whatever they can get. I can't lie so I'm too transparent and this has caused many problems: when you don't lie, no one will believe you. Whenever I had to undergo an investigation, things did tend to drag on for ever as a result. I tend to digress and it needs further explaining. Telling the truth is neither a religious thing nor it is from my up bringing; it's just that I have nothing to hide.

himself:
Yes. The forthcoming novel: Est: Map of the universe is made up from the films: Writing on the Wall, In and Out of Planet Earth, Est and With a Mouse to your mouth. It's all set within and after the TV game show: Est. All the stories emerge from one story but they are different stories and completely different films. "It's hard for me to summarize "Est: Map of the Universe": it's autobiographical.

himself:
It's not that I have enough with directing but I have been labelled Art House. My new projects: "Closer to the Sun" and "T: Ghosts in the machine" will not be directed by me. I wrote the screenplays for both and for "T: Ghosts in the machine" the novel too. I'll still be an executive producer though. Someone always needs to kick start things.

himself:
When you start a project, you're always alone. No one understands anything. You always have to make someone else understand then someone else then the rest of the world. Well, perhaps not the rest of the world.

himself:
Yeah. It can be tough at times; being fiercely independent. Not out of choice, mind. I have to constantly battle against the world and big corporate interests. I tend to generate a lot of enemies as a result. It is a very competitive world and no one wants someone else to succeed and within this heated environment it's very hard not to be political at times when everything in life is. I have been doing it since I was a child and I'm still making a living out of it so I must be doing something right.

himself:
This film: "Virtual Alien" came out because all the producers and various distributors kept on complaining about the lack of marketing and exposure in the media. I needed to be heard; so they've told me: why don't you get some members of your team to ask you some questions on camera? I wasn't too sure: I rarely every speak and if I start babbling on I might not be able to stop. Well, it's now the end, I have to go. How long has it been? What? 90 minutes? Well you can cut most of it! NOTE: The documentary runs for 2 hours...

himself:
It's amazing. I started creating music and words and imagery when I was very young and I still earn a living from what I did then and from what I'm currently doing and all this without real media exposure. How does it work?

himself:
The cover of this film has been "placed together" by Tom Norwood. We have known each other for nearly twenty years. Yes I have achieved a lot -hence the academic pedestal- but what is a lot? Many have achieved a trillion times more and no doubt better than I could possibly manage. It seems almost pretentious being compared to a -perish the thought- teacher. Black out of white could be construed as very vain too. That's funny: I like that; being seen as vain. Not actually being vain, of course.

himself:
I'm still a work in progress. I've created a few things, sold a lot but I have never made it as such. I'm too virtual. I suppose as long as I will create, I will still remain a work in progress. Is this film a work in progress?

himself:
I will always be a work in progress. It's always a work in progress since we're living inside a big reality TV show. Aliens and the other forces from above are watching us. On Earth we are monitored 24/7 on camera, on the web and everywhere else. I keep on telling my tax inspector: "why do you bother checking anything?" your colleagues from the CIA etc. have got it all already. You can ask them. I suppose since I'm working in motion pictures, one has to go through the motion.

himself:
In Art and in Britain whenever one has to ask for funding, it always turns into a political battleground. The normal channels are off limits as they are too corrupt so the new way is to apply through the tax credit system. It's great if you're big but a complete disaster if you're small. The UK tax system has ceased to function back in the nineties and without one, a country cannot function. There are people bent on ransacking, destroying and privatizing everything -including the tax system and the health service- and others who are fighting every day to save it and the civil servants caught in the middle: sometimes they are helping and sometimes they are just protecting their job first rather than the greater good. It is a fight between two strength predominance of an equal and opposite force. The result is chaos on a stratospheric scale.

himself:
"One sheep plus one sheep does not equal two. The sheep will not be plural; there isn't an 's' at the end of sheep". I have stated this a long time ago, a metaphor perhaps for conflicting problems in the language and especially in the written text. We need rules but rules are often overridden by ghastly software who -as it has happened a few times in my books, removed the "d" at the end of my words: an"d" please"d" etc. triggering a huge amount of errors not even picked up by the publishers. "We thought it was intentional. You're the editor". I didn't know this. Emphasizing their point further adding: "It's all live. It's your own reality TV show. People are expecting this from you. You will get it right eventually. It's only a series of essays: you are being monitored. People want to see a progression." I thought I wasn't a work in progress anymore! "A series of essays..." Trial"s" and error"s" ! Is anything really an error or is it consciously or subconsciously presented in a certain way for a specific purpose. That is the question.

himself:
I'm still a zero-view kind of guy on YouTube. It was huge before Google bought the site. I might publish a book with my screen shots from before the sale of this website. Now you can't even find me on the main search and yet over 8000 clips related to yours truly have so far been located with various ID-content software. Google has its own editorial process and they don't like me: it's called a frozen view count and yet they still have to pay me royalties every month. Not like some people with one billion hits within a few days. How does this work? No recognition, still virtual but earning a living from the invisible sphere. That's why at the end of this film my shadow becomes just a few black stains over a white background.

himself:
My first time in Hollywood was in 1981. I was a child then but even then the vultures were circling around me but I was not interested. In 1987 I was performing my first album in Hollywood and I have been asked again and again and I was not interested and run away. Back again in 1995. I have finally understood -not quite an adult- that in order to succeed, one needed connections in the occult. Again I was not interested and run away. I've returned back in 2005 on an official British mission funded by the British government to represent the music industry. We were a small lively bunch and the only thing available. Again I have been asked to be connected and I've refused but this time my eyes were wide open. Hollywood is full of religious temples: it could easily be confused with Jerusalem. Again: I'm not religious, Jewish blood but not illuminated into the occult. I have conceived a film titled Map of the Universe but this was my bible. I was then on the verge of completing my real bible: the diary of the 00 years: "Beyond the Sphere of Reasonable Doubt" in 3 volumes. I could do with a push in with my work but my desire to fully comprehend how the world functions had not been fully achieved. I didn't feel anyone could help. Especially if this help turns out to be expensive. In 2007 I've moved to Santa Monica for a bit with many trips to Hollywood. I still needed to clear my life, complete many projects, clear my back catalogue so divine enlightenment wasn't on the agenda. In 2009 I completed another degree, this time on Charles Dickens and the final revelation came after reading The History of the Decline and Fall of the Roman Empire by Edward Gibbon. Oddly enough I grew up on a street named after him. The title of the book was ironic in itself since the Roman Empire never actually died. Then I had the sinking realisation that everyone seems to be worshiping the devil. I felt extremely flattered since I'm also Old Nick. There are five devils and I'm one of them. I'm busy beyond belief and just realized that it has always been the case. After 6 failed contracts with big companies, if the powers that be still don't get it I'm very proud to be and remain fiercely independent. I work every day and I'm hypnotized into my own work. It's just annoying and time consuming to fly between America and Europe all the time but other than this, I'm very glad to be so busy. I have been employed without the powers that be. In spite of, actually.

himself:
I do not vote. I'm apolitical. What is there to vote? Democracy has been bought a long time ago. Even Julius Caesar -a big admirer- was very sceptical of democracy. Archimedes thought it was doomed and Diogenes slept over it inside a barrel. There is a natural process in life and that's all there is to it.

himself:
Since everyone is allowed to create his or her -or it- own TV it seems so ludicrous to be asked to be driven, controlled and force-fed by television. I love the BBC but I'm not just sure about the people in charge: then again I do not own it, the British tax payer doesn't own it, the license fee payer doesn't own it and as it turns out the Queen doesn't own it. Who owns it really? But hey: they do produce some brilliant stuff and their radio programmes are outstanding. A shame it has to cost so much every year to produce all this.

himself:
I had to bring myself up since I was 12. Who needs to be corrupted by the education system? I've tried many schools, private ones, was heavily into Steiner schooling for a bit but in the end I needed my own education. Yes I've crawled back to the education system back in the nineties but it was merely in order to receive a "title" -degree- more than anything else. Reading is good but it's hard to make choices: plenty of bad read about. The human being needs to make his/her/it own choices and learn accordingly. The education system nowadays is nothing but an expensive and dodgy cult. Trust me: I'm an expert on religions.

himself:
In an age where people are drawn to mysticism, devil worship and pop sensation I believe it was time to re-introduce my other alter ego: Old Nick -fully registered and protected name. Beware-. Old Nick is the real defender of the universe. Old Nick is not awaiting the 2nd coming of the age of Aquarius, for Old Nick is the age of Aquarius. Old Nick will be a guest in my new albums. The name Old Nick has been used and given to me ever since I can remember and beyond this when I was born. Many EPs and singles have been filed under Old Nick between 1987 and 1990 including a compilation album.