Lonesome Jim2005

Jim:
"Dear Mum, I don't know where to start so I'll just begin with the end and work my way back. I came home because I ran out of money and nowhere else to go. If I had any other option I would have taken it. I did not consider having a place to come home to a blessing. Instead, I thought of it as a burden and a symbol of failure. I'm ashamed to admit that growing up I pitied you and what I thought was your naive belief that our dreams could come true, simply by virtue of having them. Because the truth, as I witnessed it, was completely different. The truth actually was that nothing worked out, and no-one anywhere lived a life they wanted. But I see now that it was me with the naive belief. I thought if I resigned myself to disappointment at least I'd be better off than those people that tried and failed. And I hate myself for realising this now, and for taking and taking from you without giving anything back. You're one of the few good peaches in a world full of rotten fruit, Mum. I promise not to waste anymore time or take your love for granted ever again. I love you so much. Jim."