Cracker1993

DS Jimmy Beck:
Bilborough died because I showed a villain a bit of compassion. That's all I wanted in return, a bit of compassion, a bit of understanding, from her. But I got none. She despised me for it.

Dr. Eddie 'Fitz' Fitzgerald:
She loved him.

DS Jimmy Beck:
I did too. She can turn compassion on and off like a tap. They all can.

Dr. Eddie 'Fitz' Fitzgerald:
Women?

DS Jimmy Beck:
I was fourteen when I came over here. I took a lot of stick, you know? Paddy. Mick. "Get back to the bog". And I knew what I had to do to earn a bit of respect. Throw a few punches, take a few punches. But I didn't. I hung around with the girls. Because they showed a bit of compassion, see? And I fell for it. Then a month passed and I wasn't a fresh face anymore, so they dumped me, and I had to take the punches, but it was worse now, because they were harder, because I'd been hanging around with the girls. [pause] Women need rape.

Dr. Eddie 'Fitz' Fitzgerald:
I'm listening.

DS Jimmy Beck:
It's their weapon. A woman goes up to Mike Tyson, the heavyweight champion of the world, a hotel bedroom, early hours of the morning, he gives her one, he gets done for rape, ends up in the nick. Mike Tyson. The heavyweight champion. One of the bravest men. If it can happen to him, it can happen to any of us. That's what they want. It's their weapon. They want to keep us on our toes. Penhaligon needs rape.

Dr. Eddie 'Fitz' Fitzgerald:
Needs raping?

DS Jimmy Beck:
Needs rape. It's her department, her little empire. She thinks she can treat me like muck, when it's rape, because she's a woman and we don't understand. Well that's bollocks. She knew nothing about rape.

Dr. Eddie 'Fitz' Fitzgerald:
So you thought you'd teach her something about it, did you?

DS Jimmy Beck:
This is in confidence?

Dr. Eddie 'Fitz' Fitzgerald:
Yeah.

DS Jimmy Beck:
Strict confidence?

Dr. Eddie 'Fitz' Fitzgerald:
Yeah, doctor-patient.

DS Jimmy Beck:
I don't believe you.

Dr. Eddie 'Fitz' Fitzgerald:
Strict confidence, Jimmy.

DS Jimmy Beck:
Swear.

Dr. Eddie 'Fitz' Fitzgerald:
Bloody, bloody, bloody.

DS Jimmy Beck:
Swear on the life of your wife and children.

Dr. Eddie 'Fitz' Fitzgerald:
I swear on the life of my wife and children that I will not repeat anything you tell me.

DS Jimmy Beck:
Swear on the life of your newborn baby.

Dr. Eddie 'Fitz' Fitzgerald:
You're sick.

DS Jimmy Beck:
I am sick.

Dr. Eddie 'Fitz' Fitzgerald:
I swear on the life of my newborn baby that I will not repeat anything you tell me.

DS Jimmy Beck:
[Hesitating] I never intended to rape her. As God is my judge, I never intended it. I just wanted to frighten her. I was gonna pull the mask off at the last minute and laugh in her face, but something happened and she looked so... vulnerable. Weak. Frightened. And I felt so powerful. You wanna know the truth? I'll tell you the truth. I'd never had such an erection in my life. I realised that I could do it. That I could rape her and get away with it... just walk away from it. And... that's why I did it... because, I could. I... I raped her because... I could. You'd have done the same thing. [Fitz gets up to leave] Every man I know would have done it.