Hawaii Five-02010

Jack McGarrett:
[On a tape] When he was 5 years old, I asked my son Steve what he wanted to be when he grew up. He said "I want to be a cop, dad, like you." I told him to be anything but that. The life of a cop is - is not easy. It's not that I'm not proud of the work I did. But more than anything, I have - I have regrets. The toll it took on my family, the way it hurt them. It's uh, it's something I think about everyday. Now, uh, I'm alone here. Losing my wife was almost unbearable. Giving up my kids, that uh, that just broke me. I'm so proud of them, but they'd never know it. I've missed so much of their lives. Watching them growing up and all. I guess this is the way it has to be until I figure this out.