One Tree Hill2003

Nathan Scott:
[at the hospital] Dad, why does this have to be so difficult? You're my father, so I should love you, but I've spent so much of my life hating you.

Dan Scott:
[nods] I was a terrible father. I know this.

Nathan Scott:
You know, I can justify a lot of screwed-up things that you've done. You bullied me because you wanted to make me tough. You tried to ruin my marriage because you wanted me to have a career. You even burned down your diner just because you wanted to see me again. But I can't understand how you could murder your own brother. And I'm worried. I'm worried that when you're gone, that's all I'll remember. And I'll still hate you for it.

Dan Scott:
You should hate me for it.

Nathan Scott:
So why did you do it?

Dan Scott:
[shrugs] I was always jealous of Keith. Even when we were kids. I was athletic, popular, all the things that he wasn't. But still I was jealous of him. And people were drawn to Keith, and I hated him for it.

Nathan Scott:
So you shot him because people liked him more?

Dan Scott:
The day I shot Keith, I was in a dark place. I was convinced that he tried to kill me. I'd lost you, I divorced your mom, my life was spiraling downwards, and meanwhile Keith was building a new life with my high school sweetheart and the child I abandoned, and every time I looked at him, I felt like I was punched in the gut.

Nathan Scott:
So what happened in that hallway?

Dan Scott:
Keith wanted to go into the school to save that kid. So I let him go... hoping he'd get shot. Let him be the hero, as long as he was a dead hero. And then I thought 'why should he be the hero when it could be me?' So I followed him in. Jimmy was crying... and Keith was telling him 'it gets better... that pain in your heart that tells you there's no way out, it's wrong... it gets better'. And I felt like he was talking to me. And in that moment, maybe the most heroic, kindest moment of my big brother's life, I hated him. I hated him more than anyone or anything, because nothing had gotten better. That pain was still in my heart. That voice in my head saying there was no way out was right! And he was standing there lying to me! And after Jimmy died, I picked up the gun, and I aimed it at Keith, and he looked at me. And all I could think of was how everything that had gone wrong was his fault. And it wasn't gonna get better until he was gone. Just pull the trigger and it all ends! [voice breaks] So I pulled that trigger! And it didn't end! It got worse. I'm so sorry. [weeps] I'm so sorry! I'm so sorry.