Ozark, Season 3

Wendy Byrde:
Well, let's, let's cut right to it, shall we Fred? What is it going to take, to put us over the top, and host your convention?

Client:
REO Speedwagon.

Wendy Byrde:
REO Speedwagon...

Client:
Yeah. If you're the kinda place that can get the Wagon, you're gonna have yourself a whole lot'a dentists.

Wendy Byrde:
So, listen...I know how concerned you are about security. And...I just want you to know I've been thinking a lot about it, too. About safety... and our future.

Marty Byrde:
Okay.

Wendy Byrde:
I've been reading about the cartel war. Navarro's lost 61 men in the last five weeks alone.

Marty Byrde:
Hmm. What's that got to do with us?

Wendy Byrde:
There's a saying in politics. "Never let a good crisis go to waste."

Marty Byrde:
And?

Wendy Byrde:
And...Helen's coming into town. I know, you're expecting the worst, but let's...let's preempt that. Pitch her on the idea of expansion.

Marty Byrde:
What does that mean?

Wendy Byrde:
Hotels. Casinos, but we keep the daily operations legitimate. We sell the idea to Navarro as a safety net. We put his share in a trust...for his kids. Untouchable. That way, if the cartel war goes south, then he has a whole new revenue stream. Completely legal. Well? What do you think?

Marty Byrde:
Well, I just...I think that's batshit crazy.

Wendy Byrde:
It's not.

Marty Byrde:
No?

Wendy Byrde:
No. It's not. And actually, it was Helen's idea. She talked to us about expansion. There is a...hotel and casino on the Kansas border in St. Joe's. Its infrastructure is old. It's getting killed by a casino across the river. And all it needs is an influx of cash to upgrade, and they would crush their competition, but their margins are too low. It's a win-win.

Marty Byrde:
No.

Wendy Byrde:
Just like that?

Marty Byrde:
Just like that.

Wendy Byrde:
Jesus. [scoffs] Of course.

Marty Byrde:
I'm trying to keep us safe, Wendy.

Wendy Byrde:
Yeah, well, so am I.

Marty Byrde:
I mean, how much more fucking stress do you wanna take on?

Wendy BYrde:
This would all be legitimate.

Marty Byrde:
Except for the seed money from the drug lord, which, by definition, is not legitimate?

Wendy Byrde:
We are pre-approved by the gaming commission. No one would question the initial investment. We have Navarro's gratitude. This would only increase it. Don't you understand? We're in.

Marty Byrde:
We're alive. Big difference. You want to know what a good outcome from this cartel war would be? Navarro getting blown off the face of the Earth, and you and I being out from underneath this.

Wendy Byrde:
But what if that doesn't happen? Expansion makes us a political player. It insulates us, and that keeps us safe. We could be the very legitimate, very public face of Missouri gaming. [chuckles] We'd be too big to fail.

Marty Byrde:
Wendy, I did not agree to stay here to start raising red flag after red flag.

Wendy Byrde:
It's the smart play.

Marty Byrde:
Stop. I'm here. Take the fucking victory, okay? And do not tell me what is smart and what is not smart. You blew through that stop sign six months ago.

Wendy Byrde:
Do you know what I did today? I talked to a woman about her toe ring stand. I have the time. We have the clout. I can do this. Just think-- think about the things we could build. Why should the Charles Wilkeses of the world have a stranglehold on this state? We could have the money and the influence. We could control every political lever in Missouri. We could give millions to the causes that we care about. We could run this goddamn place.

Marty Byrde:
Do you even hear yourself?

Wendy Byrde:
I do. Do you hear me?

Marty Byrde:
I understand you're upset.

Helen Pierce:
Oh, really? Do I seem upset? My client, on the other hand...

Marty Byrde:
We've been over all this.

Helen Pierce:
Yes, we have.

Marty Byrde:
Considering the amount of hires that we had to make, there's no way--

Helen Pierce:
Yes, you don't know who might've infiltrated, so you don't wanna launder. I understand. Just as I'm sure you understand that I didn't ask to drive to the Ozarks today, but we all have to do things that are outside our comfort zone, don't we?

Marty Byrde:
They think that we killed a fed. Agent Petty’s DNA was all over Cade Langmore’s truck.

Helen Pierce:
They know you didn’t kill him.

Marty Byrde:
But you know what I mean. I think what none of us can account for is the emotional component for the FBI. We can't be sure what level of resources they'll invest.

Helen Pierce:
So, is it a tougher hand? Sure. But the reality is, it doesn't matter if they think that you hired Cade to get rid of Petty and then got rid of him. You've always known the laundering would have to be done right under the FBI's nose.

Marty Byrde:
And it will. I just need some time before I start moving tens of millions of dollars through that building.

Helen Pierce:
You're supposed to be the best. That's why you were hired.

Marty Byrde:
Well, then listen to me, okay? People as individuals are completely unpredictable. One person making one bet, there's no way I could possibly know which way he or she is gonna go, but the law of large numbers--

Helen Pierce:
Yeah, you're mistaking this for a discussion. Look, I was sent here for a simple reason, to deliver one simple message in person, despite my own various shit-shows, which I guarantee stack up quite nicely against your own. Launder the fucking money. Starting tomorrow. Are we good, or are we in our feelings?

Marty Byrde:
We're good.

Helen Pierce:
Good.

Trevor Evans:
This is the point where I'm ethically obligated to tell you that you can make a deal.

Marty Byrde:
I've got no reason to make a deal.

Trevor Evans:
I'm not sure you comprehend how poorly the cartel war is going for Navarro, but it won't be long before all his hacks and all the petty criminals working for you start looking for ways out. Do you think they'll be loyal to you? I find comfort in the idea of you waiting every day for that one slip-up... or betrayal. That one wild card.

Frank Cosgrove Jr.:
You embarrassed me.

Ruth Langmore:
How the fuck did you get back in here?

Frank Cosgrove Jr.:
It's a poker game. People talk shit.

Ruth Langmore:
This time, you're gonna get the fuck out, and you're gonna stay the fuck out. Sit tight.

Frank Cosgrove Jr.:
Do you know what your problem is?

Ruth Langmore:
Gee, tell me.

Frank Cosgrove Jr.:
Your problem is you're just playing dress-up. And you know it.

Ruth Langmore:
I put this game together all by myself, and you fucked it up because you can't bluff well enough to pretend like you belong.

Frank Cosgrove Jr.:
You're a fucking bitch.

Ruth Langmore:
And you're a low-rent daddy's boy who can't even pay to get respect.

Frank Cosgrove Jr.:
I should fucking kill you.

Ruth Langmore:
Come get you some.

Frank Cosgrove:
We got issues, Marty. We got issues of trust. We got issues of respect. Hell, we got issues of understanding the basic fucking rules.

Marty Byrde:
That's why we're here. That's why you're hearing about this from us first, and it's why we're offering you an extra 10% on top of what we're already paying you. We want to make this right.

Frank Cosgrove:
You got any idea what my boy has been begging me...to let him do to her? What he's got every right to do. You know what "untouchable" means?

Marty Byrde:
I do. We do.

Frank Cosgrove:
Then why do you think you can fix this by throwing a couple of coins at my feet like I'm a fucking beggar?

Marty Byrde:
It's not a couple of coins. It's an extra 10%.

Frank Cosgrove:
[points at Ruth] I want her fired. Then we talk money.

Marty Byrde:
I understand that you're pissed. I'd be pissed off too, but we are not the only ones at fault.

Frank Cosgrove:
So someone else went head-first off the top deck?

Marty Byrde:
Your son threatened to rat us out.

Frank Cosgrove Jr.:
That's bullshit.

Marty Byrde:
He threatened to give up our operation.

Frank Cosgrove Jr.:
He's fucking lying, Dad.

Marty Byrde:
Frank, I respect your code.

Frank Cosgrove:
[to Ruth] Is this true?

Ruth Langmore:
He said, "You really want to do this with everything I know about you?"

Frank Cosgrove Jr.:
You're not gonna take her word over mine.

Marty Byrde:
Frank, you're absolutely right about trust, which is why we are willing to trust that Frank Jr. was just joking, if you are willing to trust that Ruth will not make the same mistake twice.

Frank Cosgrove:
15%.

[They shake hands]

Marty Byrde:
She's untouchable, too.

Marty Byrde:
Um, what's this? Did you-- You bought a new casino and a new house without talking to me?

Wendy Byrde:
Those are rental properties...for Helen.

Marty Byrde:
Helen's moving here?

Wendy Byrde:
For the summer.

Marty Byrde:
That's just fucking perfect.

Wendy Byrde:
No, it's a good thing. It's a good thing. She's on our side.

Marty Byrde:
Jesus Christ. Until she's not. This is exactly what I was worried about. If we'd just kept our heads down, Wendy--

Wendy Byrde:
There's nothing we can do about that now.

Marty Byrde:
Maybe there is. I've had time to think through some of it.

Wendy Byrde:
You said yourself on the phone, we're committed.

Marty Byrde:
Well, deals go bad, you know? Good plans go wrong all the time. And Navarro's a businessman, he'll understand that. As long as we don't spend a cent of his money, as long as he's whole, we can get out of this before it even begins.

Wendy Byrde:
We're not getting out of this.

Marty Byrde:
You're saying that because you don't want to. I want you to admit something. Admit this is all about you and has nothing to do with what is best for the family.

Wendy Byrde:
This is about me making sure you don't have to launder for the rest of your life. This is about me finding our only real way out of this! So, you can either be a part of that solution, or...

Marty Byrde:
Part of the problem. That sounds like her.

Wendy Byrde:
So, you think this house will work?

Helen Pierce:
Um, at least it's three months I don't have to deal with Gene. Ugh, he attacks and attacks and attacks. He has no idea what I've endured just to keep him alive. Not that I want him dead, obviously. I mean, I do want my kids to have a father, but do I fantasize now and then about him getting the shit kicked out of him? Losing a few of those teeth he spent a small fortune capping? [clicks tongue] You betcha. I don't mean to dwell on Gene.

Wendy Byrde:
You're not.

Helen Pierce:
It's just, you know, when things get so hostile so fast, you think, "How'd I manage to fuck that up so badly?" That painting has no intention. How is it that all these years, I was trying to protect my family, and actually, I was just doing the opposite?

Wendy Byrde:
For all you know, things could have been much worse, and you're the reason they're not.

Helen Pierce:
Maybe he sensed that I was keeping things from him and withdrew. I don't know. Maybe it is all my fault. Maybe if I'd told him everything, we'd still be together. I don't know.

Wendy Byrde:
That just trades one set of problems for another. Ask our therapist. [laughs] We're very careful.

Helen Pierce:
Hmm.

Wendy Byrde:
Maybe that's the only way to truly make a marriage last. Make it impossible to blow up without the shock wave swallowing everyone.

Helen Pierce:
Mutually assured destruction.

Helen Pierce:
What do you think happened at that casino last night?

Marty Byrde:
Boy, I mean, your guess is as good as mine.

Helen Pierce:
So, why did Wendy look like she thought maybe you did know?

Marty Byrde:
I don't know. Where's this coming from?

Helen Pierce:
Where it's coming from is that I'm starting to sense that you two aren't exactly on the same page about this expansion plan.

Marty Byrde:
Hmm. As you know, I don't like to take on unnecessary risk.

Helen Pierce:
I'm not talking about philosophical differences. I'm talking about something deeper. In case you hadn't noticed, this plan now involves more than just the two of you. So, when you have problems, they become my problems.

Marty Byrde:
I think you should be having this conversation with the both of us.

Helen Pierce:
Wendy isn't the issue here. Just be thankful that she and Ruth have got us back on track. [pause] You didn't know.

Marty Byrde:
Of course I knew. I'm surprised that, uh...that you did so soon. Good.

Marty Byrde:
[calls Ruth] What are you doing?

Ruth Langmore:
What do you mean?

Marty Byrde:
I mean, right now, tell me what you're doing.

Ruth Langmore:
I'm using the slot scam I told you about on Big Muddy, forcing them back to the negotiating table.

Marty Byrde:
No, no, no!

Ruth Langmore:
Why?

Marty Byrde:
You have to stop that.

Ruth Langmore:
[stammers] What? I can't. It's already done.

Marty Byrde:
Why didn't you tell me that you were gonna do that, Ruth?

Ruth Langmore:
You-- You made a big deal about how I'm not supposed to be bringing problems, how I'm supposed to be solving them. I'm just doing what you fucking wanted.

Marty Byrde:
Okay, but you're not. You're completely screwing us.

Ruth Langmore:
By getting you another casino when no one else could figure out how the fuck to do it? Are you fucking kidding me, Marty? How about a little gratitude? I mean, your wife seems pretty fucking grateful.

Marty Byrde:
Wendy has absolutely no idea what is good for us.

Ruth Langmore:
Is that my fault? Is that my fault that you can't communicate for shit with your wife?

Marty Byrde:
All right, Ruth, listen to me.

Ruth Langmore:
No, no. How's about instead of shitting on me, you get your own house in order? And until you do, how's about you fuck off? All righty? [hangs up]

Wendy Byrde:
How is your ex? Is he still in the hospital?

Helen Pierce:
He is, and doing about as well as he should be. How are you and Marty?

Wendy Byrde:
We're okay. We're-- We're good. We're just... We're a little disconnected at the moment.

Helen Pierce:
Ah. Same thing happened to us. When I started eclipsing him professionally, he was no longer interested in me sexually.

Wendy Byrde:
Oh, I'd hardly say I'm eclipsing him.

Helen Pierce:
Oh, please!

Wendy Byrde:
No, we can't do any of this without him.

Helen Pierce:
Few people get my client's attention the way you have.

Wendy Byrde:
And should I be worried about that?

Helen Pierce:
What, his attention?

Wendy Byrde:
Mm-hmm.

Helen Pierce:
Only if you fuck up.

Marty Byrde:
I'm just asking for your help.

Wendy Byrde:
Actually, you're not. You're going behind my back to expressly do what you know we are not allowed to do.

Marty Byrde:
Because you won't help. Do you not see a pattern here?

Wendy Byrde:
You've done nothing but fight me on this. And now, now you want unfettered access to the very thing you've tried to undermine since the very beginning.

Marty Byrde:
I don't want-- I need access, Wendy. We need access.

Wendy Byrde:
We have made promises to our shareholders about this casino, and I don't think-- I don't think we want to annoy our shareholders.

Marty Byrde:
What would you have me do?

Wendy Byrde:
I don't feel very compelled to help you right now. I just had a very interesting conversation with Frank. From Kansas City.

Marty Byrde:
Oh, yeah?

Wendy Byrde:
Hmm. And you do...you do realize what a magnificently stupid and dangerous thing it was that you did in Kansas, right?

Marty Byrde:
I pleaded with you, "Please don't do this. Please do not get us further in on this." Remember that?

Wendy Byrde:
Yeah. And because you didn't get your way, you went behind my back to sabotage me.

Marty Byrde:
I was trying to protect our family, Wendy. That's it.

Wendy Byrde:
That is such-- That is such a tired...

Marty Byrde:
Is it? Okay.

Wendy Byrde:
...tired excuse. Yeah. You know what you like to do? You like to control your family.

Marty Byrde:
I'm asking you for fucking help on a problem that you created, and you're not helping. That's the whole story.

Wendy Byrde:
To you.

Marriage Counselor:
Marty, what would it look like to achieve your objectives without interfering with Wendy's project?

Marty Byrde:
I think that that would look like death.

Marriage Counselor:
But what would it really look like?

Marty Byrde:
Really, death.

Marriage Counselor:
Okay. Marty, my mother had a saying. Just as a pie is only as good as it's crust, a marriage is only as good as it's trust. Going behind Wendy's back on a project that is obviously meaningful to her violates that trust. Wendy is a powerful woman, and it's your responsibility to nurture that, Marty. Not stifle it.

...

Marty Byrde:
What the hell was that? Hey, Sue! What the hell was that?

Marriage Counselor:
You told me to let her win a couple.

Marty Byrde:
Small things. Small.

Marriage Counselor:
I thought she was right.

Marty Byrde:
I don't give a fuck.

Marriage Counselor:
You're yelling at me.

Marty Byrde:
Well, I'm angry, okay?

Marriage Counselor:
Yes, Marty, you are. There is something deeper at play here. And I believe that you and Wendy can be happy...if you let me help you.

Marty Byrde:
Save it. I'm not bribing you to make us happy.

Omar Navarro:
[on the phone] Well, you closed down the new casino, Wendy.

Wendy Byrde:
I have a plan.

Omar Navarro:
Plan. Yeah. Well, your plan is bleeding my money every day.

Wendy Byrde:
You've trusted me so far.

Omar Navarro:
I don't trust you. I trust my opinion of you. So, please, the next time we talk, I want to hear that you closed this deal, and, Wendy... Well, if you can't get what you want with reason, then...

Wendy Byrde:
Yes.

Omar Navarro:
[inhales] ...you'll have to get it with force.

Helen Pierce:
You don't ask this man the same question twice.

Marty Byrde:
Well, Helen, I'm not asking a question. I'm telling you, as the person who directs these finances, we need to look for a short-term solution for our laundering problems.

Helen Pierce:
And I am telling you, as his attorney, my client wants his new business clean. You're gonna have to find another way.

Marty Byrde:
Tell me, is it your client's wish, or is it Wendy's?

Helen Pierce:
Why would you ask that?

Marty Byrde:
Well, because I don't think you understand how invested she is with your client.

Helen Pierce:
Meaning what, precisely?

Marty Byrde:
The only reason we can't move money through the Missouri Belle now is because of an audit that she brought down on us. Okay? Maybe she should talk to Navarro.

Helen Pierce:
No.

Marty Byrde:
Her obsession with expansion, it's fucked us.

Helen Pierce:
No, no, no, no. You fucked us, Marty. I've seen the warrant. Wendy didn't cause this audit. You did, when you decided to blow up a casino. Let's be plain. You played, you lost. I have no interest in looking at that any further. My interest is in moving forward as a team. Now, I assume that's not gonna be a problem. Is that gonna be a problem?

Marty Byrde:
No.

Ruth Langmore:
Shit. [sighing]

Ben Davis:
Breakfast?

Ruth Langmore:
Look, I know I kissed you last night, but I thought I was gonna fucking die.

Ben Davis:
This isn't about a kiss. I didn't see you eat for five days straight. And I was serious last night. My family shouldn't have dragged you into this.

Ruth Langmore:
I've only known you for five fucking minutes. I was a criminal long before Marty Byrde showed up with a bag full of cartel cash. So spare me your fucking pity. [gets in the car]

Ben Davis:
It's not pity. I just think you deserve better. I think you're pretty spectacular, to be honest. Now eat your burrito.

[pause, then Ruth lowers her window]

Ruth Langmore:
I prefer French toast sticks.

Omar Navarro:
[on the phone] Wendy. How are you?

Wendy Byrde:
Better. Thank you.

Omar Navarro:
It's been a very difficult time, I know, and I'm sorry that you had to go through it.

Wendy Byrde:
I appreciate that.

Omar Navarro:
I think you're going to be very pleased because I have been thinking about the question you asked. "What's next?" Do you know what a charro is, Wendy?

Wendy Byrde:
Uh, cowboy?

Omar Navarro:
A Mexican cowboy. And my grandfather, well...he was a charro, and nothing would impress him more to know that I was the proud owner of an American horse farm. And it would make a beautiful piece in the legitimate empire that you are building.

Wendy Byrde:
We can certainly start to look into that right away.

Omar Navarro:
I have one in mind already. The best one in Kentucky. They're expecting a visit from you this afternoon, and, Wendy...uh, this is the one I want, so...you and Marty, you must get it for me. ¿Sí?

Wendy Byrde:
Of course.

Omar Navarro:
Something is wrong. You're not happy.

Wendy Byrde:
No, I am. Very. I just-- I just have... I just want to know... Why did you let Marty come home?

Omar Navarro:
Do you not want your husband back?

Wendy Byrde:
No, of course I did. We all did. It's just...We didn't pass your test.

Omar Navarro:
Marty passed. I didn't know him, now I do, and you're very lucky, because he's just like me.

Wendy Byrde:
How so?

Omar Navarro:
He wants to win.

Ruth Langmore:
[after threatening him] Any questions?

Frank Cosgrove Jr.:
No.

Ruth Langmore:
Good. Now quit parkin' in the crippled spot. What you got ain't a disability. Just poor fuckin' judgment...

Wendy Byrde:
Are you really okay? This doesn't feel like something you'd get over in a day.

Marty Byrde:
Well, it was-- it was hell. I wasn't lying, and I-- I told the kids that, but, um... Wendy, this might have been the best thing that could have ever happened. I spent a decade afraid of something, and when it finally arrived, it wasn't at all what I thought it would be. And I wasn't who I thought I would be.

Wendy Byrde:
What does that mean?

Marty Byrde:
It means you were right. Me burying my head in the sand wasn't gonna keep us safe, but I figured out what is.

Wendy Byrde:
What's that?

Marty Byrde:
I'm gonna turn Agent Miller. I'm gonna put her in our pocket. That's what I told Navarro. That's what got me out.

Wendy Byrde:
The warrant is gonna expire in a couple of weeks. If we just wait it out, she'll be gone.

Marty Byrde:
They're gonna keep coming back. That's what Maya said, that this is gonna be a long play for them.

Wendy Byrde:
"Maya"?

Marty Byrde:
Yeah. Yeah, that's what she said. Years. We'll never know when the hammer's gonna fall, and she's very... she's very good. [laughs] I don't know if I can stay in front of her. But if we own her... all the anxiety goes away. Wendy, if you want safety, if you want to get the kids out, this is it. You hear me?

Wendy Byrde:
People...People don't just turn an FBI agent.

Marty Byrde:
Right.

Wendy Byrde:
So why don't we just...take a breath...

Marty Byrde:
What are you doing?

Wendy Byrde:
...be still.

Marty Byrde:
Don't do that. You asked me to get involved, and this is what it looks like. This is me supporting you, Wendy.

Wendy Byrde:
[on the phone] Why didn't you tell me you wanted to butcher a horse?

Omar Navarro:
How did you get this number, Wendy?

Wendy Byrde:
This was supposed to be a legitimate expansion. A legitimate business and you've just ruined it.

Omar Navarro:
The horse is still alive. I own the farm. Everything about this is legitimate.

Wendy Byrde:
The horse is gravely damaged. The owner here is devastated. You've just undermined everything we've been working on. We're supposed to be partners.

Omar Navarro:
Partners? No, no, no. You exist for me to use! What did you think, huh? That because you are American, you are not gonna get your hands dirty? Wendy, if I am at war, you're at war! We're not partners. I own you! And if you call me again like this, I will make sure that you remember that.

Marty Byrde:
[about the kids] Do you think, uh, grounding works? As a principle?

Wendy Byrde:
Not as well as prison does.

Marty Byrde:
Remember in Chicago when they were like 10 and 7, and they wanted to know what murder was?

Wendy Byrde:
Vaguely.

Marty Byrde:
And Jonah asked, if someone's driving and they hit somebody who was walking, was that murder?

Wendy Byrde:
And I said no, it was manslaughter.

Marty Byrde:
He kept saying it over and over again. Manslaughter. Manslaughter...

Wendy Byrde:
Why are you remembering this now?

Marty Byrde:
And Charlotte realized it was "mans laughter". It was funny.

Ben Davis:
I have that feeling like when you just quit a job. Tell your boss to get fucked, walk out to your car and just drive away. It's a good feeling, man. [laughs] I've never been a fan of the routine. I've never been a person other people can force into a thing. I mean, I'm peaceful, I'm loving, but I'm not like the others. I'm not. I'm not like the others, and I will not fall in line with the others. When they're saying "This is normal, what you walked into is normal, what we built here is normal, and your reaction to it is wrong. That's not normal." No. No. Mmm-mm. [pause, notices an American flag emblem on the dashboard] You serve in the military? [The taxi driver says nothing.] I get it, I get it. Thank you. I can never do that, thank you for your service. Did you ever wake up in the middle of the night and play out the worst possible scenario? Like you're driving your car, and a kid comes out of nowhere on a bike or one of them scooters, and you smack into that kid, and...the kid dies. The good part of your life is over. I wake up, I'll just flash to that. Me, not you. In my warm bed, roof over my head. [singsongs] In my warm bed, roof over my head. Food in the fridge—fridge in the first place, I'll wake up, I'll just start thinking about the guy by the gun store who lives in a tarp. And the city just keeps fucking with him, and he's just a guy. He's just a guy, he's just a guy, he's just a guy out of his mind. He's probably a marine, because he has that look, much like yourself. He has that look much like yourself and he's just trying to get it all...you know, he's just trying to get by, but he can't, 'cause he can't, 'cause he can't, 'cause he can't get...[tears up] but he can't...find the click anymore, the...the...the key. Can't get it all...put together again. But there are days, I would imagine, there are days when, when it's like...when it's close. When it's, like, this close to, like..."Oh...I remember. I remember what my mind was, before the thing happened that ruined my mind. I remember who I am now, and I don't gotta sleep on the sidewalk by the gun store in order to not to kill myself, or kill my wife." But then...[exhales] he loses it. Another day goes by, I'll lie in my bed, cry about...killing the kid on the scooter, or...the homeless marine, or my father dying. And my father was not a good person, but...I imagine him there at the end. I just want to hold him. You know? That's kind of always been a problem of mine, I'll go deep into another person's shit, or I spin out on a thing that hasn't happened yet. It might not happen. But I worry. I just worry. Like Tom Petty. What a shame. [inhales] My day's been going good, man. How's your day been going?